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05 dicembre 关于卖身契我于公元2006年11月23日，我满23岁的后一天，在就业协议上签字，签到了203所。。
前面这一句话中这么多23这个数字组合，不能不说是一个很神奇的巧合，22日那天，我宿舍哥们就说我将在23日这天卖掉。
果然。
我对西安这个城市没有什么映像，也说不上主观上的喜欢或者反感，不过由于一关系要好的摇友来自西安，对西安有了一点奇怪的好感。不过一切都需要时间的检验，估计和成都还是没有比的。
有了解西安情况的朋友，欢迎联络。特别是小丽同学，你在西安待了4年，可能有很多想法，看见此文，速与我联系。看你一天也挺忙的。。嘿嘿。。。 21 novembre 还有一个半小时我就23了。 还有一个半小时了我就23了，黄土都埋到我膝盖了，难怪现在有点跑不动了。如果黄土埋到我腰部，我不就。。。了。。
郁闷了。随便说几句。如果明天有好消息，肯定要写写来。唉。。
各位同学等等。 04 settembre Dissection's soul Jon Nödtveidt kill himself.As rumours have started to spread we feel obliged to confirm Jon Nödtveidt's death.
Jon Nödtveidt was a man who lived his life according to his convictions and True Will. A couple of days ago he chose to end his life by his own hands. As a true Satanist he led his life in the way he wanted and ended it when he felt that he had fulfilled his self-created destiny. Not everyone will have understanding or acceptance for his personal path in this life and beyond, but all must respect his choice. Those of us who have met him in his last days can assure that he was more focussed, happier and stronger than ever. It is our full conviction that he left this world of lies with a scornful laughter, knowing that he had fulfilled everything that he had set up for himself to accomplish. The empty space that he leaves behind will be filled with the dark essence that he manifested through his life and black-magical work. His legacy and Luciferian Fire will live on through those few who truly knew him and appreciated his work for what it really was and still is. As our brother's goal in life and death never was to "Rest in Peace", we will instead wish him victories in all battles to come, until the Acosmic Destiny has been fulfilled. For the glory of the Dark Gods and the Wrathful Chaos! from www.dissection.nu
My own view will login on in few days...Too busy to express. 29 luglio Last night to say somethingTomorrow, it's the time to go back home..My ticket is in 7:50PM, last night in nanjing this semester.. So, i wanna summarize my second semester of my master degree study career..
This semester is a nightmare....I wasted lots of time in something...In the beginning,i thought it will worth..By now,i know i haven't got the key to that HOLE...Someone is not to be changed by another one easierly.If it's easy,need no more prison...I met a girl who changed part of my view through life,fate and family... Some people's life is living to be a tragedy..When you are young,you know nothing,and you can't change anything;when you get to know what hell is there, it's too late to solve the problem.The best time was gone. You have no choise to your fate. God threw this girl to the world,tell her:"You are daughter of Satan, Go away,i forsake you.."God know,that girl just broke his glass ..God never forgive her, i don't know why God forsake her.. I met the girl. She tried to dress herself like Sid 's teacher.That's Satan's uniform..I listen to Black metal,but i don't understand what Satan want to say throught the riffs..But i know all she want is just a embrace of the God...The God is passing by without any notic,Satan following,give her a gift : Evil heart ,angel appearance.. She is on the way to hell..I got acquaintance with each other through a black metal gig. Maybe she think i am Satan's follower..We talked with each other accompanied by alcohol and cigarette,She show me her God smart braim,Satan Evil heart and angel appearance.I have a illusion that maybe i can help her out of cage. She is a punk .But i think she is far more than punk,even black metal follower.She have her own Bible..Not Holy Bible.She is her own God.Forget Satan, he just wake her up and tell her how to enpower herself..I do something want to help her..but it went to waste..But i know, She will never hurt me, I tried to help her,she knew it and appreciated it. I know She treats me as a good friend. Finally,no matter what's aftermath, it's not your fault...It's God's fault to forsake you ,then Satan's fault to light up you. I don't know the exact meaning of the sentence"too fast to live,to young to die",the phrase "too ...to" puzzled me..I knew that's your motto.
I have to rectify my world "worthy" and "waste".It's not about waste time and worth to do ...
I just felt frustrated when i can't do anything to help her. Forgive me!
So, next semester i have a lot of thing to do.First ,finish my study,pay more attention to my business.I depend on it for my existence or living...
God forgive me for telling the story to all of my friend.if they read here,they will know they can trust GCD more than you...
27 luglio All about a girlToday i watched a movie performed by Tian yuan.... It's about lesbian..but my feeling about her have nothing to do with lesbian...I love the way she smile,the way she speak,the way she sing..She will attract both man and woman just by her aroma and sensitivity ...When the movie is over,the song "a wishful way" come up, i engaged in a strange scean. With the music, heart is beating with the rhythm,feeling good,especially when it's middle night and all alone in dormitory,dream in wishful way.. Have listened to her voice,you want to understand her own mental world,but we will feel frustrated right away.It seems so near, after a glimpse,everything seems so far away..Fascinating .....
Let me talk something about the lesbian movie "Butterfly"..It's a beautiful movie..Lesbian ,i know little about it. But i know everyone have the right to choose whether to love woman or man just like the right to choose whether live or die...(Something about euthanasia)..Tian yuan in the movie is a perfect lover, patient,clever,beautiful,versatile(Just because she can play guitar and sing my favourite song ..LOL),and understanding . Though the lesbian is accepted by the main world,but the pressure in the shoulder is quit heavy.. If you choose escape,more pain ,more sorow,more hurt,more anguish,more agony you will suffer..Face your true inside,be yourself with great courage...Good luck ,lesbian and gay!!!!
A friend of my friend is a gay,i never meet him ,but i know he is a good guy, sentimental and warm heart...All he need is understanding and containing..i will never treat the homosexual people as abnormality,they are as normal as us.Only difference is they choose another way to paradise...So ,Good Luck an Have Fun!!
Tian yuan ,i appreciate your voice,songs and movie for accompanying through three neverdark night. Always wish you were here.......
PS.. Maybe i should buy a book written by Tian yuan, So i can understand you more..notwithstanding,i know no one in the world can understand you if you keep be yourself..
Don't be corrupted by commerce,you know what Kurt had done to himself.....Your music need not to be known by everyone in the world..Be yourself please..
Good LUck and Have fun
Last:
I always have something to say and write. only when i am all alone ,will i sit in front of the computer to write down my words. It's middle night, my soul comes out to breathe fresh air for a while..I use English in order to express myself more convenient,because my chinese is poorer than English....LOL.
F U C K ing network connection.... It ruin the atmosphere....So. 25 luglio Gloomy Monday!Today is Monday! No it's Tuesday now. I misunderstood the line division for a long time ..All Alone in Dormitory,looking at the scene,i try to think..I try to listen to the sound of my blood flooding in my vein.Void again...Hollow ! By my ears is the sound of my passion ,time , youth passing through me out of the window,just like you cut your vena,the blood comes out just like the brook! Anguish,pain ,agony,fear,sorrow,pain.....You have to taste in your life...Undeniable,uncontrollable, inexpressible,unavoidable! Wake up and taste the carcass !!It's cool and rainy in Nanjing.I can keep focus on the Gloomy life,no be interfered by the hot summer. It seems make no sense..Gloomy day with no joy...I have been this state for three months..I know i have lots of thing to do,which i have to to ,in order to feed myself in future. But i don't have the passion and power to finish my own work...Nothing else but Gloomy...Metal is my favourite,but power in it can't wake me up.So i let myself drowning in the music of "Hopscotch".. You never get tired,you never get tired,but you will get frustrated.you can't hold on. If i can control myself like machine,I must be a machine. "I have be dreaming all these day,All i dream is a wonderful play,where i can build myself a world, DREAM IN A WISHFUL WAY.All i need is a sharp knife..."!(not to suicide,just to cut your hair,just like Shinead O'Connor..Cool and bright...)
This kind of feeling is amazing and funny.You know you are wrong,but you don't want to change your mind.Why? Why not change you life by yourself... I realize a sentence "Life is short,Play more!" As i growing, the way to make myself happy is hard to find..No only me,every one ,every one if you are not a jerk ,freak or Saint...No saint in the world, that make me think of Zidane.
A wishful way to paradise,No one have the sight of the future..We are all fraigle inside."The world is like that used to be,no one can change".........
After these word,i feel better and sadder. "Sad but true.." Don't bother me,don't try to make me think you know what i am talking about...If you know,you are jerk,freak or saint.. Don't try to comment and guess, Make no sense at all to me ,to you ,to everything... "She is trying She is collecting ,all the diamonds in the street,she is aching ,she is waiting" i hope you can "shine on your crazy diamonds"....
The world is crazy,how can we not to become to be crazy.....
Good luck&Have Fun!!!!
05 giugno happy的周末汗！！！！刚刚在这里写了好多关于上周周末的感想，可惜，妈的Myword浏览器死了。卡死了。。
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我辛辛苦苦写的那么多东西就没有了。我最反感作重复的事情，除了活塞运动!_!。。。。
觉得还是继续写点，最近比较闲，事情都忙完了。
基于惠惠家吃饭的感想和实验研究
续（被浏览器吃掉的，省略坐车，只写吃喝玩乐）
关键词： 龙虾 啤酒 K歌
一桌子的菜，好多东北菜，还有龙虾，我喜欢吃龙虾。结果第一龙虾就和我过不去，把尸体水水贱到我衣服上了，我为了惩罚龙虾，使劲吃了很多。。哈哈。。。
东北人实惠，喊我喝酒我就使劲喝。。。喝哦。。喝哦。。。 喝晕了。。喝哦。。。
惠惠家给人的感觉是非常温馨，这样的感觉对我来说很遥远。。
吃完饭，我们又开始想晚饭吃什么！哈哈。。。一致通过，吃饺子。东北人家作的饺子可是不是一般的好吃。 口水流啊流啊。。
K歌去，四个人，使劲唱，发现崔键的歌好唱。又好听
PF唱歌无可救药，应该每天早上起来掉嗓子。估计是小学音乐课开小差开多了。哈哈。他们疯狂照相，不知道为什么！
重头戏，晚上吃饺子，东北饺子配上四川沾水，不提了。。刚刚以为不用喝酒，使劲吃了几个，结果后果不堪设想。。。 喝酒。。4个人消灭了六瓶啤酒，可是肚子里面和桌子上还有那么多可口的饺子，而且我还继续惩罚了中午的龙虾。。。。
可想而知，肚子远了，饺子没有吃完，兜着走。回家。。。。。
走到回家的路上，QQ车前轮爆胎，幸好开得慢。。。。走着走着，啤酒劲缓过来了，我们打开兜着的饺子继续吃。。BT。。好多年没有吃这么多了。。难受！！！！！
结论：东北人家惠惠家的饺子相当好吃，人相当热情实惠。以后还要经常去吃！！
参考文献：
1.论东北饺子
2.论K歌
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几天失去联系的小猪联系上了，安全！！
小心点哦。。 29 maggio 柳暗花明又一春想通了，世界杯好好看。。
没有具体支持的球队，哪个踢得好看我就支持哪个。。。
女生听摇滚和女生看足球的本质是一样的。。
今天看了一个帖子。写了关于蓝颜知己。那天钢牙给我提过给大家看看
“
做你的蓝颜 在身体的渴望之外 好吗
做你的蓝颜 在爱未烬的余热里 好吗 做不了你寸刻不离的相依 成不了你一生一世的永远 就做与你隔时离空的蓝颜 好吗 做一个知你懂你却不能拥有你的蓝颜 做一个疼你恋你却不能再爱着你的蓝颜 好吗 是黑暗里的一盏灯 让孤独远离 让寂寞走开 让温馨缠绵 让温暖缠绕 在你最晦暗的阴影里冉冉照亮 是静夜里的一首诗 让浪漫左走 让美丽右行 青葱的岁月滑过 友情的源泉生根 让如光的色彩在紧握的手中亮丽到天明 你的悲伤中有我的忧愁 你的心酸中有我的惆怅 你的泪光中有我的爱怜 你的落寞中有我的抚慰 清风是我的体贴 明月是我的温柔 蓝天是我的胸怀 白云是我的情绪 你是一片落叶 我就是一缕清风 风伴叶移 你是一株绿草 我就是一丝细雨 滋润心身 不太宽厚的肩膀是你受伤后的依靠 不太大的伞下是你心灵的港湾 用我最聪明的智慧将爱串成 剔透的珠琏 悬在心幽深的崖尖 你的微笑会在那里 荡漾成我最甜美的回想 爱是一盘未下完的棋 情是一首未唱完的歌 相伴是过不去的崖 相拥是游不过的海 相逢相识相知却不一定能朝夕相伴 相恋相爱相属亦不一定能相拥相守 有一种爱叫舍 爱过 又无奈于爱 便舍吧 那 就让我的身影远离你的眼眸 让我的痕迹飘出你的生活 舍我成念 只因为爱 有一种恋叫弃 恋着 又纠缠于恋 便弃吧 那 就让我的气息拂过你的耳发 让我的眼泪滤尽你的缠绵 弃我成思 只因为爱 做不了你寸刻不离的相依 成不了你一生一世的永远 就做与你隔时离空的蓝颜 好吗 做一个知你懂你却不能拥有你的蓝颜 做一个疼你恋你却不能再爱着你的蓝颜 好吗 ”
然后我们来共同研究几句歌词：“
我只有两天
我从没有把握
一天用来出生 一天用来死亡
我只有两天 我从没有把握
一天用来希望 一天用来绝望
我只有两天 每天都在幻想
一天用来想 你一天用来想我
我只有两天 我从没有把握
一天用来路过 另一天还是路过
” 94年的许巍原来是这个样子。。。的
27 maggio 风平浪静，暗流涌动I never thought you trade your soul to the fate, never thought you leave me alone...........
最近几天不对劲，具体什么地方不对还。。。。。。
我一直在想我朋友给我算的我的命 就是“牺牲”，这个牺牲怎么解释呢。。。
小猪留下来了，哈哈，还可以一起抽烟喝酒唱歌骂人。。 20 maggio 热死了，无聊死了！前天考完了偏微分方程，突然轻松了下来，突然发现没有事情做了，哎！
空虚是可怕的！
今天最高温度32度，我热得不行，而且好久没有运动，就骑个自行车出去去游泳池逛了一圈，刚刚出门，差点又把脚崴了，上次崴了还没有好哦。。霉死，幸好这次反应快，没有崴下去，我都一个月没有踢球了。。 骑车自到游泳池，大门紧锁，没有开门 。 哎。。。硬是找不到地方去。走教研室。。。
苟活于斯。。。。。。。。。。
19 maggio 说几句。。不然要被人家删除了昨天晚上考完了偏微分，如果我不读博士的话，这是辈子最后一门需要考试的课了；
读不读博士，不知道。 为什么不知道？ 不知道！小猪给我算了一卦，但是我偏向于不去相信。。。
小猪过马路，不要被车撞了，1停2看3通过。好运小猪；你希望像NANA一样在台上歌唱，你希望像NANA一样的生活，我都理解，但是。。。。哎。。。你那双NANA鞋子真的很好看。认识你以后，我就开始抽中南海了，原来中南海8MG真好抽
世界杯要来了，准备熬夜。。
暑假南京肯定很热，怎么办？
09 marzo 一直想说花儿几句。。但是我忍了。。转一个吧
转至http://spaces.msn.com/robbyking00/
记得高二还是高三的时候，花儿出道，有点朋克，至少他们说感谢“Greenday”。现在呢。。不说了、
PS.刚刚去网上查了一下，居然大部分新歌都涉嫌抄袭剽窃。哈哈哈。。。。没脸见人哦。。 06 marzo 值得纪念的日子。今天我的电脑又回到以前的Athlon XP1700＋。哈哈，我用了大半年的Duron950后，突然换上了1700＋，还有点不习惯，那个资源管理器跳出来真快！我都没有反应过来，他就已经跳出来了。哈哈！
但是。。。。但是。。这个1700＋只是一个朋友的，借来用用，具体什么时候换还不得而知。能用几天就用几天，能爽几天就爽几天。不求天长地久，只求曾经爽透！顺便还借了个内存256M的。安逸。最近电脑可以好好爽一下了。CS1.6居然可以稳定100FPS，好久没有在我的电脑上找到这样的感觉了。看来我的SIS735主板还是买的非常成功的，虽然才140块。。可以。。
以后买电脑我都买旧货，旧货好，便宜。性价比高。。等我上班了，我去掏个旧的barton2500＋和板子，再随便买个可以打cs的显卡，然后买个好的液晶显示器，肯定不会超过4000。我的电脑使用关从此改变。 27 febbraio 梦。。。。昨天晚上做了个春梦，梦见和一个初中同学嘿咻。但是居然早上起来裤子是干的。^_^。我就一直再想，怎么会梦见她。不符合逻辑哦。
然后几天中午长达两个小时的梦。前一个小时的梦，梦见和几个人一起睡觉，单纯的睡觉。第二个梦，就是后面一个小时的梦，很奇怪。梦中的我因为什么原因（忘了）被治安拘留两天，（汗！^_^）被关进了监狱。但是梦中的监狱居然是典型的情色场面，充斥着毒品和色情。而这个监狱的地形地貌居然是以前台中的教学楼。我从我们二班这边走到八班那边。一路上看见男男女女都在喝一种我仍为应该是毒品或者麻醉剂的液体，然后女人们都穿很少、很紧。眼光迷离而暧昧。走过七班门口，遇到罗洁（我非常诧异，居然梦中会出现她），具体装束不便形容，反正非常风月（我发明的形容词）。正在被一群男生围着。。。。。。。（省略100字）。然后继续走，遇到谢宝树，穿着紧声衣。我们开始聊天。刚刚没说几句，我的手机响了，把我惊醒。原来是我订的闹钟。这个荒诞离奇的梦就结束了。
我为什么会做的梦呢。搞不懂。梦和现实又有什么联系呢。。
哪位高人会解梦，给我分析一下。。 18 gennaio 回到家乡回到四川，一切都是那么惬意。看到了久违的朋友，吃到了爽口的火锅，看见了熟悉的阴天；一切都是那么亲切。
四川人的生活真是舒服，成都人民公园里面，那么多休闲的人们，自由自在的享受着生活，打麻将，打牌，掏耳屎，真是人间仙镜。
春熙路拥挤的人群，飞机上美丽的空姐，火锅店沸腾的红汤，仿佛生活一下美好了！
希望我们大家永远快乐下去。真羡慕pablo的工作室&居室，给人感觉很爽。姐姐也快结婚了，看着他们甜蜜的样子，我真高兴希望我善良，可爱，美丽，迷人的姐姐能永远美丽，永远快乐。
杀人游戏居然可以开专业俱乐部，真佩服那个哥们的创意。杀人游戏也太费脑袋了，我这样的懒人真是不适合。
让我最惊讶的是德阳的出租车起步价居然和三台一样，2块。
一切都是那么惬意。
ps. 我姐姐又送我了一件金属天堂的衣服，哈哈，我好幸福。谢谢我可爱美丽善良迷人的姐姐 。亲一个 17 dicembre Going,Going,Gone 转当海明威发现自己开始痴呆，就毫不犹豫用猎枪轰掉了自己半个脑袋；川端感受到写作的终结，悄悄地咬上了煤气管；那么多最后在肉体上消灭自己的伟大心灵，他们其实是幸福的，趁自己还能动手的时候结束掉精神资源已经枯竭的生命。啊～王国维、徐迟不是跳了吗，三岛、芥川不是剐了吗，我同学说得好，轰轰烈烈的一天胜过碌碌无为的十年。对于别人，我们必须尽到人道的义务，但是作为个人，自己有选择的权利。我在这里郑重地拜托，等到哪天我精神殆亡，肉体苟存的时候，如果我自己已经忘记了如何离开这个美丽的世界，那么别犹豫，诸君，请向我开炮。转!!!1
Rape me,Rape me ,my friends....
很好一首诗。。Z 买不回，聋了，一对耳朵
买不回，掉了，一头秀发 买不回，黄了，一嘴坏牙 买不回无邪的十二岁 铁锤举起，对着世俗的门窗 手枪举起，对着绝望的心脏
时间，going 秀发，going 坏牙，going 恶梦，going 避孕套，going 汽车洋房，going 医生和病床，going 亲爱的朋友啊，going 砰然的一声，gone 一颗疲劳的心脏 变成满地的玫瑰满天的夕阳 edited by Bricklin
I choose not to choose live....
By Renton From <Trainspotting>
不是我写的，我看别人写的，然后改了一下 10 novembre 好久没有更新了.今天来搞搞看见miss JOJO那么勤劳的耕耘她的Space,我感到非常的内疚,本着天天向上的思想我带来一首诗,现在流行写诗..特别是用英文哈哈哈哈哈.Miss JOJo
Creep
When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry You float like a feather In a beautiful world I wish I was special You're so fuckin special But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doin here? I don't belong here I don't care if it hurts, I wanna have control I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul I want you to notice, when I'm not around You're so fuckin special I wish I was special But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doin here? I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh She's running out again... She's running out, she runs, runs, runs, runs... runs... Whatever makes you happy Whatever you want You're so fuckin special I wish I was special But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo What the hell am I doin here? I don't belong here I don't belong here |
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