Tomorrow, it's the time to go back home..My ticket is in 7:50PM, last night in nanjing this semester.. So, i wanna summarize my second semester of my master degree study career..

 

 

     This semester is a nightmare....I wasted lots of time in something...In the beginning,i thought it will worth..By now,i know i haven't got the key to that HOLE...Someone is not to be changed by another one easierly.If it's easy,need no more prison...I met a girl who changed  part of my view through life,fate and family... Some people's life is living to be a tragedy..When you are young,you know nothing,and you can't change anything;when you get to know what hell is there,  it's too late to solve the problem.The best time was gone. You have no choise to your fate. God threw this girl to the world,tell her:"You are daughter of Satan, Go away,i forsake you.."God know,that girl just broke his glass ..God never forgive her, i don't know why God forsake her.. I met the girl. She tried to dress herself like Sid 's teacher.That's Satan's uniform..I listen to Black metal,but i don't understand what Satan want to say throught the riffs..But i know all she want is just a embrace of the God...The God is passing by without any notic,Satan following,give her a gift : Evil heart ,angel appearance..  She is on the way to hell..I got acquaintance with each other through a black metal gig. Maybe she think i am Satan's follower..We talked with each other accompanied by alcohol and cigarette,She show me her God smart braim,Satan Evil heart and angel appearance.I have a illusion that maybe i can help her out of cage. She is a punk .But i think she is far more than punk,even black metal follower.She have her own Bible..Not Holy Bible.She is her own God.Forget Satan, he just wake her up and tell her how to enpower herself..I do something want to help her..but it went to waste..But i know, She will never hurt me, I tried to help her,she knew it and appreciated it. I know She treats me as a good friend. Finally,no matter what's aftermath, it's not your fault...It's God's fault to forsake you ,then Satan's fault to light  up you.  I don't know the exact meaning of the sentence"too fast to live,to young to die",the phrase "too ...to" puzzled me..I knew that's your motto.

 

  I have to rectify my world "worthy" and "waste".It's not about waste time and worth to do ...

I just felt frustrated when i can't do anything to help her. Forgive me!

 

 

   So, next semester i have a lot of thing to do.First ,finish my study,pay more attention to my business.I depend on it for my existence or living...

 

   God forgive me for telling the story to all of my friend.if they read here,they will know they can trust GCD more than you...